Dependence

Something caught me off guard...at least in my thinking. My mind chews on things for quit sometime and then when I least expect it they pop back in from nowhere. The funny part is that I no longer thought my mind was doing anything with it but somehow the thought has progressed non-the-less. This thought: dependance on who or rather what?

I am not sure exactly where the thought first began but I am aware that I was listening to a story Sunday night. I had also traveled through bits of Job (I never realized until proof-reading this Job is spelled job though only one is a book of the Bible) recently and the mix of it all lead me to the conclusion I am not dependant on God. Or rather I do not act or give God gratitude for the dependance He gives that I attribute to other things. Amidst the hustle and bustle of the world I have forgotten to depend on the KING and falsely given His glory to lesser things.

Example:
Once upon a day I went driving down the road to work. My normal routine is Starbucks and to work I go followed by either a social or church event. Suddenly I am in a car crash and though I am OK, my car is not. So, I go home thanking God I am OK and depending on my family to help me with the car issue? Small problem right? It would seem rather big but because I know my family has other cars and I have insurance I KNOW I will be fine.

This scenario is not real. But, it leads me to think. What if like Job God chooses to allow me to someday see Him-REALLY SEE HIM. I live more fearless then some and not as much as many others. No matter what I do I know if I fall on my butt I have family who will help. So what would happen to my world if instead of loosing a car I lost my family? What if for some strange reason all my siblings, my parent, my grandparents were killed in a plane crash or a fire? What then would I fall back on? Lets make the scenario a little worse. What if not only were they all killed but I find out there is not a bit of inheritance that goes to me. Oh, and now I wake to find I no longer have any friends to turn too. I am working still but have taken too much time off and so they fire me. Next, my house burns down and I am covered in terrible burns. So, what then? Would my life be over and how would I respond.

Would I choose to worship God and seek Him, or would I choose to hate God? Would it take something extreme like that for me not to trust my family if I fall and to trust God? That I don't know but I am working on. I can't imagine what it would have been like to be Job but God allowed something similar to happen in order for Him to be dependant on God and it took all of that for him to see God. I guess more then anything it makes me sad that we give people and things the glory that God deserves. I want to depend on Him and it is as simple as that. That my friend will be my prayer and I hope I learn it the easy way : )