Full Attention

This of course is the name of a Jerremy Riddle song as well as where I feel my heart is at. I have spent the last year or so very focused on another place and forgetting all that God has made me for and to be. The last two or three months have been suprising as God has taught me a lot more then I was planning on...as is always the case.

I fell very much in love with the idea of missions and pursued a dream of Seattle. It looked as though the doors were opening for movement in those directions but what I was doing here was not so focused and was shutting down. I should have known long before now that my focus was not on Christ but was on Christian things. Sad, but often true and so fast and so hard we can vere just slightly from the path staying in the glow of the light but not looking directly at it.

December was interesting and I was working through the Seattle ordeal. I am absolutly enamered by Seattle and will try to go there every year possible. If in fact God allows someday I will move there but there has to be a better reason then falling in love with the city itself. There would have been much that I would have given up here all because I had fallen in love with an idea and a dream. I wish I could explain more but this is a difficult thing to do. I had many conversations trying to figure it all out and amidst these also caught a glimps of the truth of the situation. So, what seemed like God opening doors was in fact...me running toward something else which we are often allowed to do!

Early January I was able to go to Caborca and I have had some time the last month or two to just settle in a bit and seek out what God really wants. The great part of this is that I found my purpose again in the beauty of the cross. I want to share and be missional in my living. This does not mean far and away but this means now and here. So, this has been such a blessed finding for me as I have been seeking answers and clarity for awhile...just all in the wrong place. The beauty that can be found at the cross is more then enough for each and everyone of us. I hope to never run far from it. God has continued to bless my oportunities here with the people in my life and I have had more joy and peace then ever just chasing Him. There is so much more that can be said but that would pull from from the point that everything tries to rob our focus from Him. In fact things can easily slide in as sin comes because of our desires even if they are not bad. All I want is to praise Him with my life and continue to share and love radically right where I am at and take the opportunities that He gives me boldly and with the passion He has given me to do so.

This song speaks movements to me and so not only did I name this blog after it but I will post it here. I feel this is exactly what I want and what I wish I could say but someone made for writing music said it better.

"Full Attention" Lyrics
by Jeremy Riddle | from the album Full Attention


May Your voice be louder
May Your voice be clearer
Than all the others
Than all the others

May Your face be dearer
May Your words be sweeter
Than all the others
Than all the others in my life

Please keep my eyes
Fixed on You
Please root my heart
So deep in You
Keep me abiding
Keep me abiding
Keep me abiding
That I may bear fruit

May Your presence be truer
May Your presence be nearer
Than all the others
Than all the others

May Your light burn brighter
May Your love move deeper
Than all the others
Than all the others in my life