Simplicity

Tuesday morning and the first day off in a week. I see so much beauty in the world around me. Sometimes it is breathtaking and in the simplest moments I find You. The Creator displays glimpses in the absolute simplicity of life. The world we live in is so full if we will only see it. I cannot help but hold my breath and be overwhelmed by it when I take it in.

I love simplicity. I find joy in beauty in things like coffee or this mornings dirty chai. The sun that shines and moves about the Earth is a constant mood change. Laying in the grass I feel brief burst of wind and in the distance I hear birds that sing to each other. The warmth of the day crawls and hugs my skin as the dampness of the earth soaks into my clothes. If you look one way you see a tree that holds life and whos strength continues to stand as it grows upward towards the heavens. A song comes on in the distance that gives me tingles as the hands slide carefully across the guitar strings. I have goosebumps and my heart stirrs.

I am thinking about days in Seattle one of the worlds perfect places. Latte art and cool weather, the flowers in the market place and fresh fish though I don't care for the taste myself. The way I feel loved or do not rushes into my mind. Sitting in pajamas, messy and curley hair curving about my face and a movie in the background.

Not many people find joy in life or the simplicity of it. Joy for me comes in moments and memories and little things. I like calm and quiet moments. Moments of passion and longing and just enjoyment of the things and people I love. I like to share life. Some of these are guy moments too that I can't help but remember and linger through. Though I have never called one my own I get closer to see what I love about them. I love the simple.

Laying about and chatting. Watching the moon or just being. I love reading into each and every thing and finding meaning that is deeper. The way they affect my heart becomes a physical depth. Feeling lost in someones presence. The scent and warmth of their body though I will not partake. I like the way they have looked at me. I miss more then anything the laughter and childlike playful moments. The one who will do life with me and the one who I can be at rest with. I miss the easiness of the moments but will wait until it is right. I will wait for the one who I will mean something for. I want to be beautiful with someone.

It is not an outward thing though I do love the physical attraction of knowing a man is stronger. There is something so overwhelming and so beautiful about the guys physical presence. Knowing he could overpower you but that he holds you gently. Feeling so treasured and that he does find captivation in you.

Memories. They are precious. They are steps and learning and heartache and feeling stirrers. I would not change it though sometimes I long for that. I will continue forward for Your glory. I see the things Paul gives up in the bible for You. I am not that type as I am made for a partership. I love the emotions and am drawn more to David. I am passionatly drawn to the way he feels. I feel. I know You and thank You for every detail. May I continue to fall into You and become more and more me. Beautiful Lord...Your everything.