Some peoples' hearts are stirred by deep conversation, by poetry, but mine is most stirred by music and lyrics. This my friends is the latest find. I know words are enough but I am including a link hoping that you will listen to it. I love this song, I rejoice in music and praise to our Lord. Merry Christmas and may we rejoice in Him.
Divine Romance Phil Wickham lyrics
Artist: Phil Wickham
The fullness of Your grace is here with me
The richness of Your beauty’s all I see
The brightness of Your glory has arrived
In Your presence God, I’m completely satisfied
For You I sing I dance
Rejoice in this divine romance
Lift my heart and my hands
To show my love, to show my love
A deep deep flood, an Ocean flows from You
Of deep deep love, yeah it’s filling up the room
Your innocent blood, has washed my guilty life
In Your presence God I’m completely satisfied
http://www.philwickham.com/
The first song it plays is Grace...click the next song button to hear Divine Romance
Sunday, December 24, 2006
Thursday, December 21, 2006
Dependence
Something caught me off guard...at least in my thinking. My mind chews on things for quit sometime and then when I least expect it they pop back in from nowhere. The funny part is that I no longer thought my mind was doing anything with it but somehow the thought has progressed non-the-less. This thought: dependance on who or rather what?
I am not sure exactly where the thought first began but I am aware that I was listening to a story Sunday night. I had also traveled through bits of Job (I never realized until proof-reading this Job is spelled job though only one is a book of the Bible) recently and the mix of it all lead me to the conclusion I am not dependant on God. Or rather I do not act or give God gratitude for the dependance He gives that I attribute to other things. Amidst the hustle and bustle of the world I have forgotten to depend on the KING and falsely given His glory to lesser things.
Example:
Once upon a day I went driving down the road to work. My normal routine is Starbucks and to work I go followed by either a social or church event. Suddenly I am in a car crash and though I am OK, my car is not. So, I go home thanking God I am OK and depending on my family to help me with the car issue? Small problem right? It would seem rather big but because I know my family has other cars and I have insurance I KNOW I will be fine.
This scenario is not real. But, it leads me to think. What if like Job God chooses to allow me to someday see Him-REALLY SEE HIM. I live more fearless then some and not as much as many others. No matter what I do I know if I fall on my butt I have family who will help. So what would happen to my world if instead of loosing a car I lost my family? What if for some strange reason all my siblings, my parent, my grandparents were killed in a plane crash or a fire? What then would I fall back on? Lets make the scenario a little worse. What if not only were they all killed but I find out there is not a bit of inheritance that goes to me. Oh, and now I wake to find I no longer have any friends to turn too. I am working still but have taken too much time off and so they fire me. Next, my house burns down and I am covered in terrible burns. So, what then? Would my life be over and how would I respond.
Would I choose to worship God and seek Him, or would I choose to hate God? Would it take something extreme like that for me not to trust my family if I fall and to trust God? That I don't know but I am working on. I can't imagine what it would have been like to be Job but God allowed something similar to happen in order for Him to be dependant on God and it took all of that for him to see God. I guess more then anything it makes me sad that we give people and things the glory that God deserves. I want to depend on Him and it is as simple as that. That my friend will be my prayer and I hope I learn it the easy way : )
I am not sure exactly where the thought first began but I am aware that I was listening to a story Sunday night. I had also traveled through bits of Job (I never realized until proof-reading this Job is spelled job though only one is a book of the Bible) recently and the mix of it all lead me to the conclusion I am not dependant on God. Or rather I do not act or give God gratitude for the dependance He gives that I attribute to other things. Amidst the hustle and bustle of the world I have forgotten to depend on the KING and falsely given His glory to lesser things.
Example:
Once upon a day I went driving down the road to work. My normal routine is Starbucks and to work I go followed by either a social or church event. Suddenly I am in a car crash and though I am OK, my car is not. So, I go home thanking God I am OK and depending on my family to help me with the car issue? Small problem right? It would seem rather big but because I know my family has other cars and I have insurance I KNOW I will be fine.
This scenario is not real. But, it leads me to think. What if like Job God chooses to allow me to someday see Him-REALLY SEE HIM. I live more fearless then some and not as much as many others. No matter what I do I know if I fall on my butt I have family who will help. So what would happen to my world if instead of loosing a car I lost my family? What if for some strange reason all my siblings, my parent, my grandparents were killed in a plane crash or a fire? What then would I fall back on? Lets make the scenario a little worse. What if not only were they all killed but I find out there is not a bit of inheritance that goes to me. Oh, and now I wake to find I no longer have any friends to turn too. I am working still but have taken too much time off and so they fire me. Next, my house burns down and I am covered in terrible burns. So, what then? Would my life be over and how would I respond.
Would I choose to worship God and seek Him, or would I choose to hate God? Would it take something extreme like that for me not to trust my family if I fall and to trust God? That I don't know but I am working on. I can't imagine what it would have been like to be Job but God allowed something similar to happen in order for Him to be dependant on God and it took all of that for him to see God. I guess more then anything it makes me sad that we give people and things the glory that God deserves. I want to depend on Him and it is as simple as that. That my friend will be my prayer and I hope I learn it the easy way : )
Thursday, December 07, 2006
Don't talk to Guys
No, this is not a possibility I know. And let me just mention that I do not care for it to be. Growing up with mostly guy friends that would have been a terrible thing. However, it never ceases to amaze me the way girls paint our worlds out or can change our minds in one conversation. (I am guilt here as well)
Let me give you a brief example. You are a girl, and not interested in any of the guys that you currently know. (Thank God) Not that you don't like them, you just don't like them as more. Are we there yet? This is where things can get a bit tricky. You make wise little proverbs to yourself that you should not talk to guys and you begin a list as to the why.
1. You are trying to remain uninterested in the opposite sex. (safety precaution)
2. You are trying to let them know by brief conversations that you’re not interested in them. (being very nice to very many guys often gets one in trouble)
3. You just don't make them a priority
4. You cannot fathom how they think and what they think does not interest you
5. You are still trying to convince yourself you can survive without them (though you totally enjoy their company even as good friends and someday want more)
6. You’re trying to remain uninterested in the opposite sex. (yes a repeat but your trying to remind your self again)
7. You want to remain sane (a girls level of emotion and sanity can change like that when a guy is in the picture)
8. You value your emotions remaining on a fairly wavy level (rather then the crazy rollercoaster that comes later)
So, after going through these ideas over and over again you talk to a guy. Now this could be one of the ones you have some great conversations with through out the week or it could be someone new that you had no desire to meet. He could be your best guy friend, or a complete stranger or some vague acquaintance. Somehow through this one conversation (it could be long, short, introductory, speedy, quiet, anything but uncomfortable) and somehow your mind got intrigued. Now, you will spend the rest of your week with that person in your head. This is a problem for you. You somehow find a way to bring him up to all your girlfriends in some reminiscent moment without letting them know that your interested. Perhaps you’re reciting a funny moment or for some reason you must bring him into the conversation all week.
Now, your looking forward to the next time you see him or talk to him and you want to be sure and look nice as the last time you saw him you were looking a bit shabby. Now you don't know when you will see him again or you might but you plan accordingly still pretending to yourself you have not a hint of interest. Then, you see him and you may have the guts to find your way into a conversation with him. It could be a bold "Hi, how are you doing," or a sneaky working your way around the room. Now, you have had the second conversation. (If he is new or if it is someone you already know the second conversation of interest) Now, you’re in trouble.
Your head begins to go down that road of what would happen and if you don't see your pretend future together then you rule him out from the beginning. But, if by chance you can see things about this person you like matching somehow with yours then your heart now begins to get involved and you will be in a state of unfocesed-ness quit often. This is where the whole thing can go awry as the guy has not a clue that you have somehow decided on him at this moment. This is also the point many (and I don't say all because many of us have learned enough by now to know that just because we like a guy does not mean that he likes us) girls have decided on this relationship.
This is where I think it gets funny. Girls will go all out to tell their friends every detail of every conversation with this guy. Suddenly everything they say will convince the girl and her friends this guy likes her. This is where some of us get to remind the other girls that he has not made a move that proves he likes her or is interested in anything but friendship but at this point it is to late. The girls hearts somehow follow and latch on. To some degree if you like a guy at this point you are either allowing or fighting your girl emotions and tendencies. It becomes a rather difficult battle as you seek to get closer and struggle to find reality. You have to call your mind into obedience and not think about this person all the time. But, when you do, it makes you smile. You have to try and not talk about him all the time and the fact that you like him and you don't know what he is thinking but you do. And this is something that goes on for a day, a week, a month, a year, with not a word from him that your anything but "just friends."
You might give up. If you don't give up your frustrated and praying for a sign. Something needs to change because your heart is still stuck on him. You then get jealous and wonder about every other girl he talks to or about. You have to be kept accountable so your heart does not sin more then the fact your making something other then God your idol already. You need some accountability and you have probably cried a million times by now because every time you see him you’re trying to figure him out and you never can. Sometimes you like him and sometimes you hate him. Now, this cycle can go on and on with many other variations. This is the point you then find out. He likes you...yes hurray. Or maybe he does not like you. Depending on where you are at with God, with age, and with your level of learning this lesson before, this either breaks you or turns out to be one of the best things you have ever heard. It could crush your world and then your friends spend the rest of the month trying to encourage you to seek God and not hurt and get over the whole thing. Or, it could be a joyous occasion that you finally get to return to sanity and it has been a while. So now, life will become comfortable again and you’re hanging out with friends and focusing on school and ministry and you’re so excited. Then....you find yourself talking to someone new. And yes, it is a guy....
Warning: actual reactions, responses, time, emotions and guys may vary.
Let me give you a brief example. You are a girl, and not interested in any of the guys that you currently know. (Thank God) Not that you don't like them, you just don't like them as more. Are we there yet? This is where things can get a bit tricky. You make wise little proverbs to yourself that you should not talk to guys and you begin a list as to the why.
1. You are trying to remain uninterested in the opposite sex. (safety precaution)
2. You are trying to let them know by brief conversations that you’re not interested in them. (being very nice to very many guys often gets one in trouble)
3. You just don't make them a priority
4. You cannot fathom how they think and what they think does not interest you
5. You are still trying to convince yourself you can survive without them (though you totally enjoy their company even as good friends and someday want more)
6. You’re trying to remain uninterested in the opposite sex. (yes a repeat but your trying to remind your self again)
7. You want to remain sane (a girls level of emotion and sanity can change like that when a guy is in the picture)
8. You value your emotions remaining on a fairly wavy level (rather then the crazy rollercoaster that comes later)
So, after going through these ideas over and over again you talk to a guy. Now this could be one of the ones you have some great conversations with through out the week or it could be someone new that you had no desire to meet. He could be your best guy friend, or a complete stranger or some vague acquaintance. Somehow through this one conversation (it could be long, short, introductory, speedy, quiet, anything but uncomfortable) and somehow your mind got intrigued. Now, you will spend the rest of your week with that person in your head. This is a problem for you. You somehow find a way to bring him up to all your girlfriends in some reminiscent moment without letting them know that your interested. Perhaps you’re reciting a funny moment or for some reason you must bring him into the conversation all week.
Now, your looking forward to the next time you see him or talk to him and you want to be sure and look nice as the last time you saw him you were looking a bit shabby. Now you don't know when you will see him again or you might but you plan accordingly still pretending to yourself you have not a hint of interest. Then, you see him and you may have the guts to find your way into a conversation with him. It could be a bold "Hi, how are you doing," or a sneaky working your way around the room. Now, you have had the second conversation. (If he is new or if it is someone you already know the second conversation of interest) Now, you’re in trouble.
Your head begins to go down that road of what would happen and if you don't see your pretend future together then you rule him out from the beginning. But, if by chance you can see things about this person you like matching somehow with yours then your heart now begins to get involved and you will be in a state of unfocesed-ness quit often. This is where the whole thing can go awry as the guy has not a clue that you have somehow decided on him at this moment. This is also the point many (and I don't say all because many of us have learned enough by now to know that just because we like a guy does not mean that he likes us) girls have decided on this relationship.
This is where I think it gets funny. Girls will go all out to tell their friends every detail of every conversation with this guy. Suddenly everything they say will convince the girl and her friends this guy likes her. This is where some of us get to remind the other girls that he has not made a move that proves he likes her or is interested in anything but friendship but at this point it is to late. The girls hearts somehow follow and latch on. To some degree if you like a guy at this point you are either allowing or fighting your girl emotions and tendencies. It becomes a rather difficult battle as you seek to get closer and struggle to find reality. You have to call your mind into obedience and not think about this person all the time. But, when you do, it makes you smile. You have to try and not talk about him all the time and the fact that you like him and you don't know what he is thinking but you do. And this is something that goes on for a day, a week, a month, a year, with not a word from him that your anything but "just friends."
You might give up. If you don't give up your frustrated and praying for a sign. Something needs to change because your heart is still stuck on him. You then get jealous and wonder about every other girl he talks to or about. You have to be kept accountable so your heart does not sin more then the fact your making something other then God your idol already. You need some accountability and you have probably cried a million times by now because every time you see him you’re trying to figure him out and you never can. Sometimes you like him and sometimes you hate him. Now, this cycle can go on and on with many other variations. This is the point you then find out. He likes you...yes hurray. Or maybe he does not like you. Depending on where you are at with God, with age, and with your level of learning this lesson before, this either breaks you or turns out to be one of the best things you have ever heard. It could crush your world and then your friends spend the rest of the month trying to encourage you to seek God and not hurt and get over the whole thing. Or, it could be a joyous occasion that you finally get to return to sanity and it has been a while. So now, life will become comfortable again and you’re hanging out with friends and focusing on school and ministry and you’re so excited. Then....you find yourself talking to someone new. And yes, it is a guy....
Warning: actual reactions, responses, time, emotions and guys may vary.
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