Cafe Con Leche

There is too much to say simply. I sit here in Pj's as is the frequent practice when in front of this glowing square screen. I am forced to be focused on it for the backing up of computers is a lengthy process I do not maintain the focus span for. "In the Secret," plays in the background and I am reminded of the first night I ever heard it. I was sitting inside a coffee job I had recently discovered and a rather attractive gentleman stepped up to the mike. I listened as he sang the words of this song and sat stunned and amazed. I could neither fathom or believe that a man was able to sing a song as such to a deity. Now, I completely understand and have love that song every since showing us the ache in love we have for God.

I returned from Spain last Monday night nearing 10 PM. The flights were long and yet there is something to be said about the company involved. I made a great travel friend who I had known for months yet never spoken to (as far as I have never chosen to have a conversation with this extreme extrovert )until the day his parents drove us to the airport for departure. He was so great to travel with and my opposite in many ways. There is much to process from the trip with the greatest lessons to still be learned. God is great and to Him be praised in all ways and at all times. The trip was extremely humbling and a learning opportunity that I needed like all the others.

I wish I had been more myself or the trip had been easier but that would have defeated the purpose entirely. The jet lag was worse then I had expected yet again not something I would have traded. I needed the situation to be a bit of a challenge to learn the things I did. It takes me 3 to four days to recover completely from jet lag and we arrived that Sunday night without having any time to process or switch on the schedule. The travel there was Phx to Min, Min to Amsterdam, Amsterdam to Madrid, Madrid to Malaga and finally after 27 hours of travel and lay overs we had arrived. The trip was exhausting especially when I slept a total of 30 minutes in about 35 hours.

And now I sit and process. There is much to think about. The weakness of me and the selfishness that arises too quickly in my heart astounds me. When things are easy it is not as difficult to be selfless. When times are difficult it is only agitated and stirred up within me. There is time to thing and write and pray I must. I fall so short and allow weakness to creep into every corner. I choose to fall. God allows us an grants us the strength not to but we do any way. I do.

Tonight, I prepare to begin training tomorrow for the PF Chang's marathon. Wondering if I can complete an entire one if I begin training now. I am desperate to learn more discipline and I learn that in physical training. Watching eating and getting on a schedule, working with a budget, working on yet another degree change (two days ago) and all the things life offers along the way. And my new favorite tradition...cafe con leche (more explanation to come on that later)!